| "Runner " |
| Part 1 by Nina |
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Disclaimer: I don`t own anything but a slow computer. Summary: A...poem. About the end of "Destiny." Category: Poetry Rating: PG |
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| I ran I ran I had to I ran There was nothing left Nothing left for me to do But... Run Run I ran from warmth I ran from happiness I ran I ran from my dreams I ran from the only thing in my life I ran from everything safety care joy hope your eyes your arms your love ...you All torn away from me violently and painfully All once mine, rightfully mine, robbed from my grasp In one gradual, unbearable cut Still I ran Still I ran away from everything I wanted needed Still ran away from everything I`ve been fighting for Still ran away from all the things you said to me Still ran away from everything you did for me Still ran away from everything we`d done together Still ran away from all the moments I could never forget... Still ran Still let it all be taken away I ran and I felt like my heart was being ripped from my chest as I moved away from you It`s still with you I ran I ran because I was weak and bruised and scarred from fighting for you for so long I ran because I was no longer any match for your purpose I ran because I was afraid of being damaged any more I ran because...she She was too strong Just too strong She would destroy me She already had I ran I ran thinking if I left you maybe I could just forget I ran thinking if I accepted it everything would be okay I ran thinking if I could give you up it would make me stronger I was wrong I ran I ran with images of everything we had been you me us we together I never knew those words could ever be so painful I ran The images would not go away Us holding hugging crying laughing kissing Belonging to each other You still belong to me! my heart screams I could take you back! it screams I could take back would I rightfully own I could give you back what you rightfully own No, my mind says It`s too late He isn`t yours anymore And you`re not his It can never be the same Nothing will ever be the same Run, it says Run My mind says My mind knows better Better than my heart My mind is no fun Damn my mind I ran My mind is the enemy now It will guide me everywhere It will always tell me what I don`t want to hear I will not be able to stop it It will never go away My heart is the enemy now It will always want you Remember you It will always remind me of the knowledge that will kill me, torture me, break me I will not be able to stop it It will never go away She is the enemy now She will always own you She will always be yours She will always whisper to me in my mind, "He`s not a part of you anymore." I will not be able to stop her She will never go away I ran Ran and hurt myself ruined myself broke myself tore myself broke my own heart As I will always break my own heart Again and again and again I ran I thought I was strong I thought I would fight and fight so you were always mine I thought nothing could destroy us I thought we we had could never be compared I thought I would never let anything, anyone ever take you away from me I thought I was strong It was nice to think so at the time I gave up I gave in I let you go I watched helplessly from a distance as our love was gradually destroyed, broken apart piece by piece I gave up I ran It`s over Everything is over It`s too late to save it all I stopped fighting I stopped believing I stopped holding on Too late Everything is over Everything my life my dreams you us ...gone I ran I ran I ran ...for you. you |
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