I lied. You weren't my one true love. No one ever came second best to you. I was naive, not just about you. About everything. I honestly thought we were soulmates, only to have the realization smack me in the face when he died.

Now I can only regret the past. Think back to the times when we had our human only nights. We would all bitch and moan about the Czechoslovakians. I wish I grabbed his face and begged him to forget about Isabel. To see what is right in front of him. Look into my eyes and see all the love and lust shining there. No fear of what would happen between an alien and human. No crazy flashes. Just love. But I didn't because of you. I detest you.

Now I'm sitting outside my balcony, strumming his guitar. Maria gave it to me yesterday. She said there was to many painful memoires that went along with it. You two are perfect together. Why can't you see it? You are both so selfish. Michael should be happy she left him. Just like me he's to naive right now. He will soon see. I clutch the guitar close to my heart and think of a few lyrics off of that wretched cd you play. "Would you catch me if I was falling? Would you kiss me if I was leaving? Would you hold me cause I'm lonely.........without you?" Tears start to stream down my face. Hell you will probably think they're for you. Alex you deserved so much more. I could have lived after that gun shot. Again he was just being selfish.

I miss him so much, did you even notice? No one wants to talk about it anymore. the only person who will listen is Kyle. He just sits there, and when I'm done hugs me, and a few corny jokes. I'd be completely lost without Kyle right now. He's been my stone wall. I just wish Isabel isn't always around. She never cared. She just got married. Six months since you've been........,gone. So much never ending love and devotion.

As my cries got louder you come out onto the balcony. You pull the guitar out of my hands and cast it aside like some old stuffed animal. I'd crawl out your eyes if you weren't holding my arms, babbling on about some dream about your son. Why do you think I care so much? I nod my head as you lead as back to my bed. I wish I could scream at you, but I need you. I have no one left.